She was huddled in the dark in the park
Think of something that you enjoy that you have everyday, whether its a soda, redbull, toast, coffee, gum, smokes etc. then one day randomly you just don’t have it anymore. Either its out of stock, lost, stolen, discontinued or someone told you that you can NEVER have it again. What would you do ? Would u forget about it and go about your life? WOuld you kick and scream till you got it back? Would u be that addicted that you would do ANYTHING to have it in your hands? in your reach? In your grasp?
Ok i may have over done my introduction into my rant but maybe it worked, for as long as i can remember i have been a singer and performer. I have done show after show, musical after musical, event upon event. Its my life. Its what i eat,breathe and sleep! There is no way an “outsider” could come remotely close to understanding the feelings of what its like to have music and have performing in their life and then one day it just stops. Its like..there is a silence in my life. As if a really large woman were to walk into the clothing store 5,7,9.
Whenever i go see musicals my heart starts beating really fast the moment i walk into the building. My mind starts to wonder and suddenly i forget what im supposed to be doing. Should i be in hair and make up?Should i be practicing my lines? Should i get my costumes in order, are my dance shoes tight enough? Is my voice scratchy? Did i bring my honey for my throat? Are my parents coming tonight? And then i remember…no..none of that. I’m on the other side of the curtain tonight. I’m in the seat that i never want to be in..the ” audience” Gasp…audience member? Me? There is no friggen way! You gotta be shitting me. But yeah sadly its true. I remember this one time i went to see RENT on broadway in New York City for xmas.
I was third row center and the entire time my mouth was in my lap. My heart was in my throat and my eyes were wide open. I was 17 years old and from the moment they came on stage to begin and the moment they took their bow i knew 110% THATS what i’m supposed to do with my life. I mean i knew that i wanted to do musicals as a hobby but never did i dream of feeling the way i do now. And since i haven’t done a show since October over a year ago i think its time to kick it back up. I need to just start doing it again! I sing all the time everywhere i go anything i do. So why shouldn’t i try to juggle that back into my life? Who cares if certain people tell me its a waste of time you know what its a waste of time because its not the time they would spend on it! Point blank..its time to put the dance shows on and stock up on the honey cause im going back in the light
