A little moonlight writing.

How would you feel if you kept trying really hard for something and gave it everything you had and it was never enough? Every single time you put everything you have your soul your heart your mind and someone just closes the door as soon as it opens. I’m tired of it. I’m so  enervated that i just feel like whats the use of trying its going to just keep tiring me out. I have gone on so many interviews and getting second interviews and even getting called for an interview but to have them tell me two weeks later BEFORE even scheduling an interview i wasn’t qualified but my achievements are greatly appreciated? WTF.

So heres the thing i have this opportunity to get a job at this condo, live there rent free, and get paid. WHAT MORE! but, i feel in the very back of my mind it wont happen. I mean look at the track record all No’s and zero yes’s the odd’s of it happening are cloudy with a large chance of rain. I really really want this more then anything i have ever wanted (besides my boyfriend by me 24/7) but this would literally be life changing..and i need that immensely right now.