No Heart No Life No Trust No Function

The mind is a beautiful thing. It plays tricks on you but it always helps you see the most amazing things in this world. It distinguishes your choices and sometimes it messes up and makes you take the wrong path but always, in the end you get back on track.

I ask myself this morning, what makes me happy? Well, i’m happy when i have my favorite music blasting in my room and im singing to it and getting ready for work. That makes me happy..or waking up and laying there for a few mins..that also makes me happy..but what else makes me happy is that im a strong independent woman. Even though the love of my life is on what seems the other side of the world, i’m trying soooo hard to be strong and have TRUST which to me is like having a heart. W/o a heart you can’t function. Well without trust i can’t live that portion of my life. And I have had my doubts these past few days and I have had to struggle with a lot..but is it all worth it? Is it worth forgiving and moving onto the next challenge that i’m sure is right around the corner? Perhaps or it might back fire but, i know that in the end i’ll be the same, Pains temporary. I’m still waiting to hear about this new job which brings MANY positives and yet MANY negatives.

I’m tired of not being with him.